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I've decided to move to wordpress


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I recently met 2 really great (gay) guys through a friend from Frankenmuth and one online

One lives in California and one lives in Alberta, Canada

I've been talking to both of these guys every night for nearly a month, and in each case (right off the bat) we made it clear that, because of the distance, this was a friendship only type of thing. It's a good thing that they both live so far away, because they are both perfect... and if they had lived closer... i would not be able to decide between them

tonight both of them are no longer single...  isn't it odd that both of them became this way within such a short amount of time from each other?

While it saddens me that it really means that i won't be with either of them, I feel something different... something i don't think i've every truly felt before in any situation remotely similar to them: I am ecstatic for both of them!

I can't exactly describe the feeling, but my heart flutters when i think of how happy each of them are now, and it's a great feeling. Unfortunately... it reminds me of my own, single, state.

Congrats to Cam and BJ, may both of your separate relationships flourish and bring you all the happiness you each deserve, and may our friendships last for months and years to come!

Hopefully the right someone will pop up for me, it doesn't even have to be soon... for someone that will truly bring me happiness it is worth the wait

Here's tomorrow's schedule:

8:30am - Wake Up
9:00am - Leave for Fenton
9:45ish - Arrive in Fenton
10:00am- Teaching a Trumpet Lesson
11:00am - Leave Fenton
11:45ish - Arrive Home
12:15ish - Leave for Frankenmuth
12:30ish - Arrive in Frankenmuth, and shop for snack food for camp
1:00pm - start work
7:00pm - Break
7:30pm - Continue Work
10:00pm -close the shop
10:30ish - leave for home


then i get to get up early and leave for tapico
I'm so ready to be there right now

I'm still here, but I haven't posted in a while.... dunno what I'm waiting for.. .but it'll all come one day...

today is not that day

schedule:

thursday: 1pm wake up

friday: 4am (ish) go to sleep

7:30 am wake up

8:00am depart for grandma's house

8:30am-1:30pm chop wood, stack wood, load wood

2:30-3:30pm unload wood

4:30pm take megan shopping for her birthday
6:20ishpm run into justin at borders
time unknown: nearly die of starvation and thirst
8:30ish pm get home

midnight: watch the andromeda strain (4 HOUR MOVIE/MINISERIES)
4:00 am, play euchre online, only to have my computer just turn off for no reason
4:20ish the internet decides to take a break (EXTREME FRUSTRATION)
5:00 am begin writing this entry on dad's computer

6:00 am hopefully i'll make it to bed by then

9:00 am wake up to clean the house for megan's b-day party
2pm-10pm megan's b-day party, with lots of little kids running around (cousins) and a short tempered jon and grandma (she hasn't been getting much rest either)

11pm probably still not sleep because no matter what i try i can't go to bed at a decent time

sometime in the early morning... die

monday: time unknown: awaken from my deathly slumber, only to nearly die from starvation and thirst (again)
monday: 10pm find some fail-safe way to fall asleep so i can start my job successfully on tuesday

you know who i think is hot?

ben cohen
http://www.ercrugby.com/tools/images/players/photos/2006/erc/9/250x270/554.jpg

*stolen from a facebook bumper sticker... kinda*

Dear 4:29 AM,

We've got to stop meeting this way.
I'd much rather sleep with you.

Love,
Jon



ok, what else, what else

I've found a renewed interest in the dune series after that HORRIBLE second book. I'm now reading the prequels starting with House Atreides, which is turning out to be quite the layer upon layer of twists. Two more prequels and then it's on to the third book, "Children of Dune". Hopefully the series will come back alive again, because i  can't stress enough how BORING the second book was.

After finishing the Dune series i have two more high-priority series I have started but not yet finished:


Books left in the Dune Series:

Books Left in the Prequel Series:

• Dune: House Harkonnen (2000)
• Dune: House Corrino (2001)

Left in the Original Series


The Sword of Truth

5 books left:

• The Pillars of Creation
  
• Naked Empire
  
• Chainfire
  
• Phantom
  
• Confessor
  

and
Otherland

3 books left

•  River of Blue Fire
  
•  Mountain of Black Glass
  
•  Sea of Silver Light
  

Now if I can get all of this reading done this summer, i will be very proud of myself. I don't even want to think about how many thousand pages that is... but they are all good stories... so ... we'll see!

I now have a job in Frankenmuth, at the leather shop. I've met some of the people that work there and think that this will be both fun and financially helpful.

The weekend was great. I got some good volunteer service in (amazing how strenuous physical work in the morning can make you feel like you've really accomplished something), played a bunch of Magic: The Gathering with Carter and Colton, read almost a whole book, played some PSP, watched the stars, listened to the rain, watched the stillness of the lake, and successfully kicked some ass (with carter as my partner, of course) at euchre (those old fellas can just be too cocky, it cost them the game.. and their pride).

Vassar City Band has started back up and I'd like to extend an invitiation to anyone interested in playing in a summer band that has graduated high school. The music we play is mostly above what the group is actually capapble of, but we have a lot of fun and play some challenging and exciting scores (Procession of the Nobles, The Cage (circus march), James Bond Themes, Mama Mia, some Ticheli stuff .....) so if anyone is interested come on over friday night from 7pm-9pm at to the Vassar 6th grade band room. Instruments that they are in need of are trumpet, clarinet, trumpet, saxophone, trumpet, bassoon, trumpet, percussion, and trumpet  but if you play something else you are just as welcome.

I've been playing a lot of piano lately and am starting to gain back some of what i lost in the years since i was totally serious about piano. I played through most of Liszt's Hungarian Rhapsody #2 (made famous by the cartoon "Rhapsody Rabbit") as well as the piano reduction of the Last Five Years. I'll be pulling out some more music tomorrow, including some saxophone accompaniment parts like Bozza's Aria, and well, i'll look and see what else i might be able to actually play. I would really love the piano reduction of Wicked if anyone has it!

I'm going to the chairopractor tomorrow, and that should be AWESOME!!

great concert tonight, those that were involved! i was proud of you guys, and it this has definitely shown improvement!

on another topic, i am so effin' tired of acting and being high-minded, one of these days i'm just going to burst out with a big F**K YOU to my
ridiculously-negative-all-the-time parents

they are definitely having an effect on megan

but i know that blowing up at the parents just adds to the negativity, so i'm doing my best to hold it in

at least i'm going to tapico this weekend, however brief because mom is afraid to drive megan to competition by herself ("it's just a long way for me to drive")

dad needs a break from her i'm sure, and this is going to ruin it knowing that he has to leave early and ask the people going with us to leave early on her behalf

ugh

i'll vent to carter this weekend, it'll be good for me

i'm going now

I LOVE ENZYTE COMMERCIALS

This is almost assuredly linked to just watching the silence of the lambs, but does anyone else ever get the feeling about something little that they notice, and this feeling causes you to be completely disgusted with some person or situation....

i feel like that right now.

and there is more than one such instance

but on to happier things, i have an interview tomorrow in Frankenmuth and i'm pretty sure it'll go well, i met the interviewer when i turned in the application and we seemed to click.. as in we talked for a long time about pretty much nothing

i downloaded and played the trial version of age of the empires III and i have to say that i am impressed, age of the kings is still the best in the series, there is no topping that but AoE III is the twilight princess to the Ocaraina of Time that is AoK

Has anyone read more than the first book in the Dune series, if you have... i would really like assurance that the second half of book 2 is 1000 times better than the first half, so far it's just boring me literally to sleep... so i'll read another hundred pages or so, and then maybe turn to the three books about the three big houses (Corrino, Atrides, and Harkonnen) which i guess are some sort of prequel (plus they are partially written by Kevin J. Anderson, which is one of my favorite authors)

in other news, after taking my good time to organize, unpack, and clean my room, it is cleaner than it has been easily since new year's eve between 05 and 06... it's good, kinda feels like i am reorganizing my way of thinking or something

i'm going camping starting tomorrow night so i probably won't be online until sunday mid-afternoon, except for a little bit in the afternoon tomorrow, which reminds me that i really need to pack... It'll be nice to be out in the woods of tapico again, hopefully very relaxing, and i'm considering doing this thing where you (mentally) revisit your first conclave with the OA, by being a guide to the pre-ordeal members. This focuses a lot on meditation, self-examination, scrutiny to every detail, mental stimulation, and ... well.... i can't give away everything since it is technically for members-only...

you know, there has been talk of putting yourself in a certain mindset and slowly becoming that which you pretend to be, but it can only work so deep, at your very core you are who you are

today has been nice so far

for whatever reason i didnt end up going to sleep at all last night

i kept crawling into bed, and then back out of it because there was something 'important' (finish a chapter in a book, jot down a few ideas for an arrangement, just write one more paragraph of a story, look through my MTG cards for Nightmare, .... and so on) so i finally decided that no matter what i would stay in bed when i crawled in around 5:30ish... but of course

Megan gets up at  5:45

So i didnt sleep, i got back up and made pancakes for my then rushing out of the house family, then sat down and ate what was left over

i then played some piano and sax (i actually am keeping up with my practicing this summer so far, and it surprises me) and headed out to drop of a job application at Piechnik's Greenhouse, from there i went into birch run where i saw 2 ( 2!!!) now hiring signs, so i applied at about 4 places in Birch Run, then went to Frankenmuth on a whim.

I parked at the River Place and decided i was going to walk around for a while. Not too far into my walk i spy yet another now hiring sign (remember that this is michigan and things like that are rare) so i went into the frankenmuth leather shop (which has some pretty cool stuff) and applied for a job there, and the person that does the hiring came out and met me *crosses fingers* so i'm hoping that something works out there.

On my way back to the car i bought myself $3 worth of freshwater taffy, and it is tasting very good right now.

I think today really improved my disposition towards summer, and was definitely good for my sanity.

Now, what can i make for lunch, something weird i think. TO THE RECIPE BOOK

*a later edit will detail what i concocted and digested*

I made the president's list at CMU, yay

so, pretty much nothing has changed since i got home, there was always stuff to do when i was up at cmu, but now i go through my day and feel like i waste all of the time

i made some awesome spinach and artichoke dip today, too bad i wasnt more hungry though, i definitely love that stuff

the job search goes on, but still looks grim.. if i don't get one pretty soon i guess i'll apply at wal mart and mcdonalds, two of the places i really didnt want to work

has anyone ever heard the song the closest thing to crazy?
i like it
How can I think I'm standing strong,
Yet feel the air beneath my feet?
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep,
Then break my dreams the way you do?
How can I have got in so deep?
Why did I fall in love with you?

CHORUS:
This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own…
And now I know that there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.

How can you make me fall apart
Then break my fall with loving lies?
It's so easy to break a heart;
It's so easy to close your eyes.
How can you treat me like a child
Yet like a child I yearn for you?
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?

CHORUS

...and being close to you
...and being close to you.

I need to get out of the house, it's so boring here!

I also need a job, but there's not much to do after turning in a bunch of applications, so i'm waiting.

I put up the christmas tree today, no you didnt read that wrong, my parents and sister havent taken the christmas tree down yet... that is pathetic, and i didnt want it to be up anymore as that i'm not especially fond of christmas... so i took it down

and now i'm making strawberry jello

1. Don’t piss off your peasants. They’ll revolt and kill you.
2. Don’t piss off the short people. They’re mean because people pick on them for being short and they’ll take over the world and kill you.
3. Never invade Russia from the west. The snow will kill you. (The Russians will help)
4. The Germans scream like a girl.
5. The Romans crucified people because it was FUNNY!
6. Charlemagne derived his power from the Hoover Dam.
7. Jesus was crucified because he ate his entrée with his salad fork.
8. Marry for the money.
9. Crosses are funnier if they’re rotating.
10. Ass is a perfectly acceptable name for a donkey.
11. Geography matters.
12. We don’t give a damn about Africa. (But we should)
13. The French always lose. If the French win it is because they are fighting themselves, being led by someone who is not French, or the US is doing all of the fighting. It’s best to just ignore France.
14. The voices in Joan of Arc’s head were not French.
15. We have two popes…what should we do? The Catholic Solution: LET’S ELECT ANOTHER ONE!
16. There are still two popes. We ignore the French one (see above).
17. During the Middle Ages women were put on pedestals and worshipped as goddesses. That’s exactly where they should be.
18. The Jews are the most persecuted people in history. Statistically, they’re bound to start winning sometime. (As long as they don’t piss of their peasants or the short people or invade Russia…or ally themselves with the French)
19. Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.
20. Joan of Arc was invited to a bar-b-que as the guest of honor.
21. The Great Debate of the Middle Ages: Chunky or Creamy?
22. Burning down cities will not bring your Messiah back.
23. The Romans declared war on China. They didn’t know where China was or what it was but they thought it would be a good idea to declare war on it just in case. It’s always good to declare war on people you don’t know…as long as they don’t find out and kill you.
24. When in doubt pay your enemies to go sack another civilization. Hope that civilization does not have an important looking Pope.
25. Beware of the War Cows
26. It sucks to be a Russian peasant
27. Conquer the world…but don’t forget to govern your empire or it will fall apart
28. You can piss off a king. The worst he can do is kill you. Don’t piss off the pope. He can send you to hell. Nobody likes hell.
29. The Jews are smart. They don’t have a hell.
30. Never use Disney as a historical reference because it is never historically accurate. The Little Mermaid committed suicide. Mulan was killed by her commanding officer. Hercules was NOT the offspring of Hera and Zeus. Pocahontas was 12 years old and bald.
31. If you’re a victim, crucifixion is cruel. If you’re a Roman, crucifixion is cool.
32. It’s better to be feared than loved but it’s better to be loved than to be killed by an angry mob.
33. Don’t kill the grandson of a prophet.
34. Never pick on a civilization that can burn water. We don’t know what Greek fire was, but we know that it was cool.
35. Don’t mess with Genghis Khan unless you want to live your deepest fears.
36. Marco Polo invented spaghetti.
37. Every religion has radical sects. We call them yoo-hoos.
38. The Jews, Christians, and Muslims all worship the same god.
39. Leonardo da Vinci invented chemical weapons.
40. We all came from Africa. Get over it.
41. When dealing with religion, facts are of little importance. What matter are faith and beliefs and the fact that people are willing to fight and die for them. More people have died in the name of God than for any other cause in history.
42. The Vikings killed Christians because they thought they were cannibals and they thought they might become the next dinner.
43. Christopher Columbus did NOT discover America. Nor did he believe that the world was flat. The Moral of This Story: Elementary History Teachers Lied to You
44. Armed with pitchforks, the Chinese could take over the world.
45. Do not mess with a Japanese samurai. Even if you’re Chinese and have a pitchfork.
46. Keep an eye on Poland in case it decides to walk across Europe again.
47. Deterrence only works if all players are rational. It doesn’t work when you’re dealing with nutcases.
48. North is not up. South is not down. If it helps, stand on your head.
49. Istanbul was Constantinople. Now it’s Istanbul not Constantinople. Before that, it was Byzantium.
50. The Tatars did not invent tartar sauce. The Egyptians did invent chocolate cake and for that we are grateful.
51. Strawberry pop-tarts will shoot 3 foot flames out of your toaster if you leave them in there for a really long time.
52. Guys who talk to statues and appoint their horse Consul of Rome generally don’t make good Emperors.
53. You can’t expect much from a guy named after a toilet.
54. The Phoenicians built an entire empire on snail testicles.
55. The Arabs did not invent terrorism. They did, however, invent algebra. This is a perfectly acceptable reason to go to war.
56. The Hindus invented zero. If they hadn’t, most of our grades would be much higher.
57. When uniting Germany, don’t try to rebuild Charlemagne’s Empire.
58. An army of 12,000 terracotta soldiers will not protect you from a mob of angry Chinese peasants.
59. If you’re going to declare that you’re god, make sure that you know how to make it rain during a draught.
60. Switzerland is cool…they have chocolate, pocket knives, watches, banks, the most armed society in the world, and a military that is so effective, its banned from most wars by international law. Not even Hitler was stupid enough to mess with the Swiss.
61. Mercenaries fight for whoever pays them the most money. You can’t trust them not to betray you.
62. You cannot accurately translate Arabic into English. If you want to truly understand Islam you must first learn to speak Arabic. Do not study Arabic because it is “pretty.”
63. When you’re engaged in a civil war you are more vulnerable to invasion.
64. Trade is the best way to spread culture, disease, religion, language, and technology but conquest works in the unlikely event that you don’t have anything that anyone else wants.
65. You don’t put sugar in green tea.
66. The Europeans first sent merchants to trade with you, then missionaries to convert you, and finally armies to conquer you.
67. St. Peter’s Basilica cost the Catholic Church Germany.
68. Alexander the Great was gay.

YAY for a 4.0 this semester!!

i've been experimenting with HDR photo processing, some have turned out alright and others havent

http://www.picable.com/Nature/Flowers/Violets.118008
http://www.picable.com/Nature/Sunsets/Another-Sunset-Picture.118006
http://www.picable.com/Nature/Sunsets/Sunset-Picture.118005
http://www.picable.com/Nature/Sunsets/Sunset-on-Muskallonge-Lake.115853
http://www.picable.com/Nature/Water/Lake-Superior.115852

http://www.picable.com/Nature/Weather/Snowing-in-Michigan-Two.115142

http://www.picable.com/Nature/Weather/Snowing-in-Michigan.115141

http://ironicresult.com/7-dreams-reflected-in-shadow/

these are kind of sad

Mathematics Version 2.12


What's new in this update?


* Pi now equals exactly 3.

* e now equals exactly 2.

* Fixed problem where division by zero led to undefined results.

* Fixed spelling mistake in description of Pythagorean theorem.

* Various optimisations now mean that all problems can be solved in polynomial 
time.

* The term "negative number" has been deemed offensive. The term "non-positive 
non-zero number" is now in use.

* Various optimisations now mean that all problems can be solved in polynomial 
time.

* Support is no longer offered for Imaginary Number Feature (i).

* Fixed problem where 1 = .999...

* Now compatible with Microsoft products (65536 <> 65535 <> 100000).

* Fixed problem that lead to the Axiom of Choice being undecidable.

* Implemented L'Hopital's rule for non-indeterminate forms.

* Groups are now required to be abelian; former groups will now be called 
groupites.

* Fixed the Banach-Tarski cloning glitch.

* Removed the Proof By Contradiction exploit.

* Users may now enter the paradise Cantor created for us for a nominal 
monthly fee.

* Basic arithmetic is now complete and consistent.

* Fractals have been smoothed out to improve rendering.

* All matrices are now invertible, former matrices are now called matrons.

* Cantor's dust has been swept from the servers.

* New valid method of proof: Proof by Example.

* All incompleteness theorems are now false. Anything can be proven or disproven.

* The halting problem is decidable.

* Anything can be written as an elementary function if we go far enough in 
calling something elementary.

* The Riemann Hypothesis is false.

* The Collatz Conjecture is false.

* Calculus now consists of only addition and subtraction.

* Fixed known bug where Fermat's Last Theorem failed to hold for n=1 or n=2.

* Due to customer complaints about other implementations, the natural numbers 
now start at -1.

* After a successful beta test in category theory, proof by diagram chasing is 
now applicable across all of mathematics.

* During extended server downtime, problems will now slowly solve themselves, 
simulating the progress you would have been making.

* Fixed bug where large cardinals failed to show up in certain models of ZFC.

* Mobius Strip fixed to have two sides.

* Infinity has been nerfed to constant value of 1,000,000.

* Negative numbers now use differently colored numbers to reduce confusion.

* All numbers above 3 are now a suffusion of yellow.

* Subtraction has been removed, however it is still available on special 
subtraction servers.

* New Axiom: Axiom of Clarity. If after explaining a proof to someone for 5 minutes,
 if they still do not understand, they may use the Axiom of Clarity to assert the 
existence of a proof that your proof is invalid.

* In response to demand, elegant proofs of certain theorems have been shortened that
 they may fit into the margins of books as commentary.

* Research has shown that random numbers along a finite distribution were unfairly 
biased towards the digit one over other digits. This has been fixed.

* We are proud to unveil a new kind of super-calculus, which requires twenty people
 to complete even the most rudimentary calculations over a period of hours of 
collaborative work. We feel this new math will challenge those at the higher-end 
of the profession.

* New, epic applications of super-calculus have been implemented as well.

* "Proof by Wikipedia" is now a valid form of proof.

* Feature: Uniform probability measure for the real line has been added. 
Expect support for other spaces in subsequent versions.

* For a small monthly fee, all infinite series can be summed. 
All users will be allowed to use that 1 + 2 + 3 + ... = -1/12 for a trial period of 
week.

* The math servers are going down soon to make way for the new BioWare math.

* Russell's Paradox fixed - sets can now include themselves and not include 
themselves at the same time.

* For usability, numbers of the form a+bi have been made less complex.

* All "maths" not involving numbers has been split off into daughter projects so 
that Maths 2.1.2 can now fit in one brain.

* Everyone finally understands how abbreviations and number work, and now the 
singular word "mathematics" is properly abbreviated "math" worldwide.